Wednesday, September 24, 2008

New Plan

Hi all,
I have to say Thanks--I was so overwhelmed with the response to my blog going private--it is so comforting to know there are that many people out there to offer support and follow along--I am certainly not alone with this journey.

Many of you have asked--So where did you decide to adopt from?
I have started the process with a new agency and they will use some information from my old homestudy/dossier so that getting things ready will go a little quicker than the first time.
I don't have to commit yet but I am 99% sure that my country will be Russia--that is what I am working on.
It is basically like starting over and it will be a long haul again but I feel a little smarter and I feel pretty comfortable with this program. Of course I did with Kazakhstan also when I started so I realize that anything can happen but I just feel like I will be bringing a daughter home.

It feels really good to have some hope again--August was a really sad month as I struggled with all the emotions of a failed adoption attempt. It still is hard to get too excited because I know what can happen but I feel like I have something to hope in again.
I know alot of my friends struggled also or are still struggling with the same issues. I can only say that I pray for you and I hope that you find your hope also.

16 comments:

Rose said...

Mary, I am SO happy to hear that you've dusted yourself off and are moving forward. I know that you will be bringing home your daughter...she's just playing a little game of "Hide and Seek" with you, but you WILL find her!!

Baby Kaz Moore said...

Sending you best wishes!!!Susan from Austin, smooretexan@gmail.com

Katie said...

Mary I am so excited that you are making a plan and ready to move forward-I think that has to be the hardest step-the question of whats next! I just know you will find your daughter soon! Let me know if you need anything- and good luck!! I can't wait to hear more!

JaneMM said...

Mary,
I'm glad to see that you are feeling better. I know that I am ready to move on also. I'll email you later with some details. I feel confident that we can overcome this bump in the road.

Jane

Suzanne said...

Mary, good for you for climbing back up on the horse! I can't wait to see how it all unfolds for you.

Suzanne

lisa said...

You will be the best Mom ever..I know it! Look what you are having to go through to get to her. Parenting can't be this hard...can it?

Lisa

zeunkazkids said...

Mary, We are cheering you on!!!!!! There is a child out there waiting for your loving arms to hold her!!!!
Hugs
Marianne

Matthew and Suzanne said...

My thoughts are with you!

The Gobble's (Lanetta) said...

we are all behind you... you can do this.... we are SO excited to hear Russia.... she'll find you... she will and it will be worth this AWFUL wait!!!!

Kelly and Sne said...

Mary, I am so happy that you are continuing your quest for your daughter. And it sounds like this is the right path for you. I can't wait to follow along and hope the road will be swifter and smoother than the last.

Aaron & Julie said...

It brought a smile to my face to read that you have hope again. This is the epitome of the roller coaster ride that adoption is. I am praying that the new process & agency provides the path to your daughter. Thank you for the invite, I look forward to following your continued quest to your daughter!!

Noah and Josh's Mom said...

Woooo Whooo Russia! I am excited for you. I can't wait to follow your journey!

Kim

qmiller said...

Mary: So happy to hear that you have a new direction--and a regained spirit for finding your daughter! Someday you will be able to tell her of the efforts you went to in order to locate her...and she will love the story!
Quaintance

Angela said...

Here's to hope! I wish you all the best in Russia!

Chris and Kathy said...

Mary -
Sorry to be so out of touch lately - we are happy to hear that you are keeping the momentum going forward. Like you, we also had our dossier returned due to "gender selection". Despite this, we have a lot going on still - I can fill you in later. We have been working hard to get our oldest off to college - and we are finally in re-focus mode. We've really been off the blogs and laying low lately - but we're back. I'll email you - good luck, we'll stay in touch.

Karen said...

Glad to hear that you're on your path to your daughter. I had a similar experience when we hosted a boy from Russia two years ago—we thought he was our son and when that didn't turn out, it took me close to 6 months to "dust" myself off.

My thoughts are with you.

Karen