Monday, November 2, 2009

I am home but lonely

I miss her already.
Just got home today. Once again the travel went very well and so far, I haven't been too affected by jet lag either way. Hopefully I won't crash in the next couple days. I have so much to do. Now it is time to compile the whole dossier--meaning multiple forms from multiple places. I have to see the Doctor, the psychologist, get letters from my bank, my workplace, my insurance, FBI clearance, police clearance, approval from USCIS (immigration), and the list goes on. I have some of them done but many had to be within 90 days of court so I had to wait. I am still waiting on the FBI and the USCIS--why is it the government takes the longest?? The sooner I get all this in, the sooner I can get a court date so this will be a busy week.

On the way home I had a long layover in the Moscow airport and discovered they do not have very much waiting space and they have a horrendous process for checking in for your flight. The whole time there I was thinking about my little girl and how hard this long wait with poor conditions would be when she was with me. Then I realized it won't be that way on the return next time because we will be leaving right from Moscow--so much better.
Amsterdam was totally different--I had another long layover but they have a beautiful airport and they have sleeping rooms right in the airport that you can rent by the hour. I got one and it was very nice and comfortable. I got to sleep for about 5 hours, take a shower and get refreshed, and watch American TV. It really broke the trip up and I think it helped with the jet lag. If I have to have any long layovers next time I hope it is in Amsterdam because it would be so much easier to wait with your child in a private room vs. a big airport. Thanks Lisa for that tip on the Yotel.

Now that I am home, she is all I can think about. I developed the 180 pictures that I took--I know the judge doesn't want that many but he will want to see a phote album of the visits with her.
I also went right out and bought an outfit from Gymboree--now that I know her size, I will have so much fun shopping.
Paperwork comes first but then, getting her room ready--I am so excited.

I know the wait will be hard--everything I do now centers around her--but I think it will go quickly too as I will keep busy. I am praying to go before the end of this year. The tax deduction will be nice but I mostly just want to be with her.

16 comments:

John & Jenny Morgan said...

Welcome home! It must be hard being apart from the child whom you've just met and with whom you've fallen in love. I hope the time passes quickly for both of you!

Lou Ann said...

I'm so excited for you Mary!!I know the time will be hard but like you say, it will be so full of stuff FOR her that it won't be nearly so bad as the wait before you met her. I'll bet you can see yourselves together almost everywhere you go. Two years later I still enjoy taking Lexie grocery shopping with me - crazy I know!

Try to enjoy the next two months. I'm praying it won't be any more than that. And hey, you never said what her size is....hint, hint!

Lou Ann & Lexie too

McMary said...

Thanks Lou Ann,
She needs size 4.

Nicole Brueck said...

Welcome hom Mary!
I always thought this part was the hardest. Before you were waiting for news...now you are waiting for HER, a known and identified person. Hopefully we will see you next week at our group and we can talk more.
HUGS!!

Aaron & Julie said...

Welcome home - but I know it is bittersweet. This was one of the hardest times for us. I am so happy for you - before long your daughter will be home. Enjoy shopping & preparing!!!! Now you know exactly who you are doing it for!!

Cameron and Kyle said...

Welcome home. Hope your wait to travel goes quickly.

Kelly and Sne said...

Glad that the trip was safe and smooth both ways. I can't imagine having to leave your daughter behind for bureaucracy's sake (though we'll have to do the same this time around unfortunately). The longing will give you extra motivation to get all the paperwork done in record time. Oh, and spend lots of money on clothes and stuff! I hope the time goes faster than expected. Good luck with the paperwork.

The Regentin's said...

I am glad that you are home safe and sound. I am sure that it is hard to be away from her, but hopefully your mountain of paperwork that you have to compile will keep you busy. I am sure that it will be hard to reist buying all of those cute little pink outfits....I hope your time passes quickly.

JaneMM said...

Welcome home! I know the time will pass by quickly before you go back.

lisa said...

Aww Mary, it won't be long and you won't remember what life was before you met her......Hang in there!

Lisa

Kimberly said...

Welcome home Mary - I am so excited for you! and praying with you that you will be able to return home with your girl before the end of the year! That would be wonderful!

Miles' Mama said...

I have just been reading through your posts and catching up and now I am in tears!! What a beautiful story. The way you talk about her is just incredible--so much love. These next few months might be difficult but as you know so so worth it.

Sandi said...

Mary,
I am so happy that your trip went well. I really hope the time flies and you are back to Russia in no time.

Congratulations, can't wait to see pictures.

Sandi

Alysa said...

Welcome home! So glad the trip went well. Enjoy this time shopping and preparing -- it will make the days go by faster. Soon she'll be home with you forever. Can't wait to see pictures!

Misty Clark said...

Welcome home Mary! So glad all went well. Time will pass quickly and you'll soon be permanently reunited! Can't wait for that day for you and your daughter!

Matthew and Suzanne said...

Congratulations and welcome home! I had a feeling I should visit your blog and now I see why. We are so excited for you and can't wait to hear more!